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Friday, January 6, 2017

Christmas in an ugly year



Christmas Eve Sermon

Christmas is always a busy and bustling time of year, but this year for my family and I it has been particularly hectic.  Not only has there been the gift buying, the dinner preparing, and the socializing in addition to the daily necessities of work and, for us at least, caring for a household with a perpetual cold, but it has also been a season of tending to the needs of others.  While care for the poor and the needy is not a Christmas only past-time, in this season of lights the needs of so many seem particularly apparent.  The sad, the lonely, the afraid, the hungry and the hurt have lined our lives, and while it saddens me to see so many in pain during this season of joy, I find myself grateful in those all too few quiet moments.  Grateful that God has not forgotten them, and that God has not abandoned them in the cold but sent them to us for the care we can provide them.

But it was in the busyness and the anxiousness that seems to have permeated this year that I was reminded of an old college professor of mine.  Her name was Faith, and she was the chair of the Legal Studies Dept at Hamline.  Feisty and Proud, and so incredibly sure of herself, Faith had a confidence about her that was, well…intimidating.  I remember being part of Mock Trial under her, an organization where mostly Pre-Law students play at being lawyers, and I remember time and time again being stranded in the snow every year. Faith was gonna have us make that mock trial competition, weather be damned.  I remember one year in particular, one of the worst snowstorms in decades.  White out conditions were everywhere and every news agency in Minnesota said for the love of everything holy don’t you dare leave your houses that weekend.  I-35 was closed, every major highway was impassable, and the authorities made it clear that we were all going to risk our lives if we went out into that storm.  We approached Faith with what we believed to be rather reasonable concerns.  She looked us straight in the eye, her face like flint.  Like a modern day Admiral Bird, she cursed us for cowards and shoved a map of side streets into stunned little hands. 

I’m happy to say that most of us made it.  I mean, nobody died, and thank the Almighty nobody got injured, but quite a few got stranded that year and could have gotten very, very hurt.  In hindsight these many years later I’m not so sure a chance for the coveted Ames Iowa Mock Trial Regional Trophy was worth the risk, but I digress.  Still, despite the emotional manipulation and the obvious child endangerment, I still remember Faith fondly.  Dauntless and completely indestructible, Faith did care about her students very deeply and we always learned a lot from her.  But, I was not to be a young Pre-Law Student forever, and Faith and I parted ways as I graduated college and stepped into those hallowed doorways of the Hamline School of Law.

I didn’t see Faith for many years, and oddly enough it wouldn’t be until I applied to seminary that we would touch base again.  As part of the application process into seminary they require four letters of recommendation from various sorts of people.  I guess I can’t blame them for not trusting me, I was trained by lawyers after all.  But it was precisely here that I ran into trouble.  My academic advisor from Law School, Professor Richard Oakes, God rest his soul, passed away years before which left me in a bit of a pickle.  Doing a little research, however, I had discovered that Faith was still the chair of the Legal Studies department at Hamline University, and so I approached her explaining my situation.  There was one problem, though.  Faith had lost her faith.  Herself a lifetime Methodist, she broke with God when she broke with her husband I think.  That woman had never failed at anything in her entire life, but when she failed at her marriage…I think a part of her just broke.

She listened to what I had to say and what I wanted her to do.  The task was simple enough and she was more than able to do it.  She knew my hard work as a student and could easily testify to it.  But then she asked me, “Keven, why?”  “Why do you want to throw away your career as a lawyer?  Why pass up the status, the respect, the money…for religion?”  Her mind could not even comprehend it.  Christianity was nonsense, stupid tales for the control of thoughtless masses.  And Faith knew me.  From day one in her Introduction to Legal Studies course, when asked why I wanted to be a lawyer my answer was always the same.  I came from a corrupt rural county in rural Texas; funds went strangely missing, drug deals went down, people were kidnapped and wrongfully imprisoned; and every time I was asked why I wanted to be an attorney I said the same thing, “I want to fight monsters.”  I was not going into seminary because I was some manipulative little rat, not fit for any other profession, I wasn’t changing careers because I wouldn’t make it as an attorney.  But still, she asked me that question, “Keven, WHY??”

And so I told her.  I was perhaps not so very eloquent in front of my old Legal Studies advisor, but what I simply said was this, “It fulfills me, Faith, and it will let me fight the good fight in ways the law just can’t.”  She stood there for a moment, silent, nodding her head.  I thanked her for her time and bid her good day, and for reasons that I will never know, she wrote me that letter of recommendation, and the results of that one act stand before you today.

It’s been about a decade since that meeting, and sometimes I wonder what that awesome and frightful old woman would think of her law student turned pastor.  I’ve done things I know she wouldn’t think pastors would do.  I’ve sat with Muslims discussing religion until midnight, has aided the helpless, fed the hungry, shoot I’ve even presented on religion at a Twin Cities pagan convention, shaking hands with the likes of elders like Oberon Zell.  I still fight monsters, indeed, I believe I fight them more effectively than I thought ever possible.  I fight the horrors of not just a handful of men, but the worst humanity has ever offered.  Pestilences like Fear and Ignorance and Apathy; Diseases like Pride and Foolishness and Hate.  My weapons are not just statutes anymore, but I fight with Knowledge and Reason, and it is my spirituality that is my shield. But still, despite all this, I still see people ask me that same question that Faith did so many years ago.  “Keven … Why?”  “Why give it up?  Why turn your back on so much?”  I’ll tell you why.

Christmas.  Not the Christmas of trees and decorations, nor the Christmas of pretty carols.  Those are all done to celebrate Christmas; but they themselves are not Christmas.  They are merely our response to Christmas, done in joyous gratitude for what God has done.  No, I am talking about the real Christmas.  The Christmas concerning the God who did not abandon His world or His people to misery.  The Christmas about the God who got His hands dirty, who came into our world of suffering to be what we could not.  He did not come with great fanfare or blaring trumpets, he did not come in regal attire, indeed his nobility would only be recognized by those who were actively looking for it.  The God who, for the Salvation of all Creation; man, woman, plant, and speck of dirt; was born to an unwed mother, who became in that culture an illegitimate child.  Born to be despised and destined to wander the wilderness homeless and destitute, preaching the good news of God’s love to a violent and uncaring nation.  Treated as a fatherless heretic his entire life only to finally, and illegally, be executed as a traitor and a criminal.  He lived the life that none of us could bear.  The king, humble and righteous, who would rather spend every waking moment of abuse teaching people to be better than give them the fate that the law demanded of them.  The God who became illegitimate, so no one could mock the illegitimate. The God who loved every single one of his children so much that he became homeless, became a refugee, became condemned in every meaning of that word, so no one could despise them without despising him, too.  That God, that all-consuming Otherworldly Reality, who steps down into our miserable, muck filled lives, whose dedication to human redemption included a death so horrific and shameful that they had to invent a new word for it.  Ex Crucio.  Out of the cross. 

IT IS THAT GOD, THAT CHRISTMAS, that I will follow to my dying breath, and even after.  It is that God that gives this old soul hope in ways that the law just can’t, because if all those things did not deter God from our redemption than I know there is nothing that ever will. 

I won’t lie to you, ladies and gentlemen.  2016 was a rough year.  Politically, this election cycle has left many of us exhausted, uncertain, and, perhaps, even morally compromised.  Socially, I have never seen a more divided America.  The rifts between Democratic and Republican, conservative and liberal, brother and sister, I have never seen them this deep or this raw.  Globally, we are becoming not a world of peace but one of almost perpetual war.  Human rights abuses thought unthinkable just a few years ago in all but in the most disturbed minds have become commonplace, and it seems that the 2010’s will be known not for advances in medicine and spirituality, its great strides in improving the human condition, but crisis after unsolved crisis.    

So I get it.  I get that this year, more than any other year, the busyness of the season may be a welcome distraction.  That you may be exhausted, that your emotional defenses are spent.  There are those dealing with grief this season, with loved ones lost.  There are those dealing with family turmoil and dissension, where the peaceful holiday meal will feel like walking on eggshells; where the family finances are strained, where new bills pile up and creditors fill your voicemail with daily reminders of your continued inability to pay them back.  All of this, this Christmas season, in a world that literally more than ever before wants to rip itself into absolute shreds, and it feels like it’s going to take you with it.  I get it.  I really do.  So believe me when I tell you…

God… is … not … done … yet.

The King of the Universe, the Almighty Redeemer of Creation became as vulnerable as you and me this night 2016 years ago, born to be despised, kicked at, and sneered to ensure us a place in paradise.  Do you really think THAT God is going to abandon you now?  Do you think He’s going to leave you like this, leave His WORLD like this?  The Infinite was born for you, lived for you, and died for you: it is not going to leave you stranded now. 

These things you see around you in here.  The trees, the candles, the tinsel.  They’re not for you.  If you put your Joy in them, they can’t give it back to you.  If you rely on Santa and Christmas Carols to bring you happiness or if you rely on a perfect family meal for your peace, then this Christmas Season is going to leave you feeling drained and miserable, so do not put your stock in them.  Everything we do here, from the songs, from the constant ups and downs on up to the Communion, it’s not about the  nostalgia, American Traditions, or even the duties of religion;  it is about helping you foster a relationship with the God who is both your Heavenly Mother and Father.  Go home tonight, be with family, both the ones present and the ones departed.  Know that God is waiting to be your peace, and the Holy Spirit is desperate to give you His Joy.  Stop relying on the world to be your light; if it could do that God wouldn’t have had to be born into it. 

Let Him bring the light into your life, and don’t think for a minute that 2017 isn’t going to be an incredible year.  Amen and Amen.  

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